come on sweet catastrophe

I’m happy I have such a great set of girl friends. Only some people could be so lucky. :)

You were in my dream last night. It was kinda nice to see you happy, and how it was somewhat like what we used to feel. :)

Consumed by the lingering emotions of the past

Consumed by the daily treacheries of this institution

Consumed by the workload tantamount to hell

Consumed by short-comings

Consumed by the unknown

Consumed by the inconsistencies of my very own capabilities

I could be serious, or maybe just a little melodramatic

But one thing I know for sure,

Or so I hope is for sure,

Things will get better.

It has to.

“You know a relationship is doomed to fail when respect is lost, like when you start putting each other down inadvertently and constantly.”

Yeah, we were doomed from the start. I don’t feel so bad now. ha-ha 

Tomorrow marks the one year mark since that part of my life started crumbling apart. I’m still alive - that’s something to be thankful for! What I’m saying is, when you think you can’t live through something, trust me, YOU WILL. There’s no other choice you’ve got but to march on and see where life’ll take you next

First thing I did: Go through all the messages and slowly deleted what could be. I couldn’t even bear to read those pour-my-heart-out messages to you that always lacked a reply.

I’m still standing and I’m pretty darn glad. :) Life goes on, really. No matter how much you don’t want it to or think it won’t. I can’t say that I’m a better person because that fall out happened but I can say that if it didn’t, I wouldn’t have done a lot of the things I did the past year. It being a good or bad thing really is a subjective decision. 

So yeah, I hope you’re happy wherever you are. I’ll still always care about you like I did that very day and I’ll still be here in case you want to come back.